DumbDumbBells

I discovered shocking news today. Guess business with friends is a really bad idea, huh?
I think i just 'un'house arrested myself. Maybe Shmaybe.

I love love BSU because of Leah, YanZhen and Sherwin. It makes it a lot more tolerable. I just realised there were many pictures that are unposted. Maybe I will update soon after I change my blogskin. You know the feeling of stagnancy does not make me a productive person so I think changing something is the way to go. Sherwin said some gross stuff about Mac's after watching fast food nation but I don't think I could stomach watching that kind of show. Pun unintended. I don't think I can eat Mac's for a very long time. Tomorrow we are going for some Career talk and I am really interested in going actually. I have been thinking about what good opportunities the casino industry might have soon and there is a talk specially for that and I cannot wait. As if they know what I have been thinking about what career do I want to venture into eventually and there is a talk about it too. My decision have been reduced to marketing, resort and tourism, economics but I am still open to other possibilities. My ideal job would be a good mix of F&B, service, travel and a great big rush.

On a whole different note, I have this guy friend who have been my really good friend from secondary school days and today I am really pissed off about what he had to say about himself. He is one of the nicest people I have ever met and the only REAL platonic guy friend who have never tried anything funny with me. He has this girlfriend that treats him like shit and it pisses me off how he allows her to do so. The best part is he always makes excuses for her and is even thinking of marrying her. I do NOT get it. Pissed off. Wished I had some friend to introduce to him or something but knowing him, he would never think he is good enough.

Ahh... I really hope I get to go Saturday. Jay's not in Singapore. Takes down the fun level a few notches. Bah.

This was the day me, Nat and Sangeeta went clubbing. Sangeeta deleted all pics and left me with these, not exactly how I would edit my pictures but better than nothing, eh?

Wasted la that night.

Tsk, never mind another time, aight, Sangz?

I love school now.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

It hurts like silk on an open wound.
Gentle, innocent but the pain.
Pleasurable almost sadistic, really.
It hurts.

Are u listening?
Do you get it?
Still not contented.
Never will be.
Till this silk cut it open.
And let it run dry,
When there is nothing left.

No nothing, nothingness.
What a beautiful word.
Absence. No beat, no voice.
There is melody
Filtered by a screech.

Feels like an alarm went off,
And it goes on and on and on and on.
Used to it, really.
Fucking used to it.

Till it stops twitching.
Stops feeling.
What do you want from me?
There is nothing left.
Nothing else to take.
Nothing else to give.

Just leave me alone.
Solitude freaks me out.
I change my mind.
Stay.

But.

Argh.

Forget it, Mum

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Procrastinate

Short.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Myriad

I remember the time we were all so naive.

Sometimes, I wish the only thing I think about is still running away from Azman.

I love them.

Dear Mum,

What can I do to make you happy?

Are we that bad?

Love, Your youngest daughter.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Room posts

Hey people, my internet's still pissing the hell out of me. This time, I paid my internet's bill, i think there is something wrong with my Linksys or something. Linksys bloody telephone operator is kinda stupid. Is it just me or is China people over-populating the world. And no, I do not have anything against them. Just it boggles my mind that almost ALL of them cannot speak basic english. THAT, I still let it slide. BUT I hate the fact that these peeps are in service line. Telephone operators, waitresses, receptionists. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?!? What kind of assumption is that? That just because the majority is obviously Mandarin speaking, heck care about the rest. Which means all these times, our teachers stressed the importance of English and compositions and ORAL, it is all of no use.

Ok, back to the subject. I called Linkys which is quite well known right now in the telecomm industry or something. And the telephone operator went, "For Engrrish. press wong". Try pronouncing it, it fucking pissed me off.

Ok ok, enough angst.

I have pictures to collect from Oer Yan Zhen, Sherwin, Sangeeta.

Last weekend was awesome. I think the best part with him was when he was driving and he was stroking my hair and the aircon was blowing softly at me and the song was playing softly instead of the usual blasts of music that plays whenever we are out to parteyyy. And i fall in and out of sleep. It's almost romantic, i tell you, if I was really into all this mush right now.

It was nice, really. Jonna, next time, please come and party. I would love to explain in details, but really, I think it is a freaking waste of my time to recap. Unless i blog daily and I really dun feel like blogging daily.

Oh Oh Oh, what did u do on Valentine's? The real plan was for me, Nat and Dell to go Kboxing but I was broke so we stayed at home and chit chatted. After which, the bell rang and PizzaHut was delivered to my doorstep. I was really suprised, from Jay. Ahh.. shiok. Simple actions.

I fucking miss the girls like mad. I have been having a sudden influx of 'gerek kakis' to hang around with. But still, I cannot stop missing the tots. Really.
Such a fucking pity that I stay so far away and I have been drifting in and out of being sick. (I should have taken my antibiotics religiously) but i cannot wait for this Sat when I can see them again.

Ok then, I got to go now.

PS: Sherwin makes me have migraines about what to wear to school. Sigh.
PPS: My bill reached an ultimate high of $169 this month. I think i am going to ask Jay to subsidize for me.
PPPS: I need a notice board for my room, and a laundry basket.

Randomness.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

When I'm gone

My internet's fucking mad, I swear.

Ubin was effing fun. I felt like a kampong girl, having to cycle for my food and ciggarettes. Swimming and cycling. My hair would be wet all the way because every time it is dry, i am in the pool again. Heh. Loved it. Pics would be up soon. Bib's suprise birthday party was short and sweet. Miraculously, i think this was the best planned gathering we had so far. Hani cooked brownies, Fi cooked Spaghetti, Nys brought sandwhiches. Nice. Me? I ate.

Handover week is this week and my fucking junior is so 'on', it pisses the hell out of me. Knn. I just want this week to end. BSU have started. I swear I am not going to ask about any other gossips or anything anymore this semester.

I have no idea what I typed above but I got to go.

Get today over and done with and then.... The weekend's going to be a blast.
Pics soon.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Scoobydoobydoooo

I am super excited because for a change, I get to go for something like a vacation here in Singapore itself. But that is not the exciting part, the exciting part is that I am going with my mum, brother, sister, the whole gang! Bunch of fun, really.

Yesterday, I received flowers from Jay! Wow, he never struck me as a romantic. HOWEVER, that still does not sway me.

Ok, I better blog fast. My brother's arriving any minute now. We plan to raid JB's stock of ciggarettes. Did I tell you my sis got a car? She's such an lucky kental. Kuna (my bro-in-law) got her a car the very next day after she passed her test. Bleagh. I digress, did you know JB has shisha? My brother introduced me this place with to-die-for Mee Maggi Goreng(Singapore's just does not cut it for me) with huuge chunks of chicken and very very well done Maggi. They also have shisha which I found out after confidently trying to justify the smell by saying it was SKL ciggs. heh. So, I might try to psycho my bro to go shisha but with this CNY stuff, I have no idea if customs would be a real bitch or a real breeze.

I feel like I have not been sleeping on my bed for the longest time.

Today 3 people asked me what I was doing for Valentines'. From painful past experiences(before I met Regan, i had a nightmare Valentine with this guy la), I would not meet someone on a date without me knowing him thoroughly. And...No.. I am not going out with Jay. A day too special, later he lovey-dovey how? So Nat, Dell and I have decided to watch chick flicks and sing romantic love songs all night @ Cash Studio. Sounds like fun, no?

Fucking random, my posts. Sorry.

I want to sleep on my bed but my brother just wants to talk talk talk talk till I fall asleep in his room.

Where is that dude anyway?

Ciao, beaver.

Monday, February 4, 2008

Insider's Scoop

These past few weeks, I have resigned to my fate that I have to spend my days in Valueshop but in the days to come, I am going to be super busy.

Reports to be handed in on Wed, preparations and catching up with my darrrrling TOTS, Ubin with the family, nights out with my favourite girls from school, (jonna, you better go ah next week), chalet with MSC, which I am going to miss terribly. And then??

OFF TO BSU!

Who would have thought? It is fucking not fair that the rest got EMRS(events management) while I got BSU(Business 'Something' Unit). So... bleagh. I finally feel alive now. I guess solitude does that to you.

Okay, once again I am using this blog as my organizer. Bear with me.

Tomorrow

Reports
Prints MCs
Print Documents for reservations
Stock cards
Organize wadrobe (it's getting frustrating finding clothes)

Wednesday

Games planning
Meet the girls

Thursday

Ubin

The rest are hushed due to some reasons. Next ladies' night is cancelled because I need to pace myself on me going out. He invited me for his company dinner. Hmmm... weird.

Nat and my brother are worried that I might feel things for him. What they do not know is that I think after Regan, i am not capable of feeling the same way for people anymore. At least not right now, and honestly, I am happier this way. Contented, really.

See ya around, bitches. My brother wants to watch anime. wtf. Obsession la.

Bye.

Give me that hotdog

We go mad with the mixed sausage set @ Almajlis. I can't wait.

Fruitless, that day.

Outcome coming soon.

Don't understand?

You will, soon.

@TOWN

Taken when we went to Club21 to view all the luxury brand (say, Dolce and the likes) and evaluate how the retailing style of this industry is. By the end of the trip, I was really bummed out.

I feel so inactive right now. I think I am fat and a slob. I need to start running again.

I really do not understand why I cannot win Jay in pool. But i won't give up, people.

Ubin this Thursday.

Stay tuned.

Friday, February 1, 2008

AntiBiotics

I feel like i swallowed a frog.

My head's throbbing, i can feel it.

I am burning up.

My body's system feels like it is under maintenance.

If not for this bowl of maggi in front of me, I would still be sleeping.

Time check: 8.47pm.

I have been sleeping for 6 hours. After taking my medicine, I got to sleep again.

Despite knowing i am going to fall sick, yesterday I popped by the Ministry of Sound after god knows how long. Smoove's crap. These fucking stupid mats are fucking irritating. I hope a new club open just for them and they ALL go there. Because, dude, it is NOT cool to shout, "TETEK BAIK AHHH" every single time u see boobs. (err.. not talking about myself). What makes u think shouting "BADAN BAIK SIOLLL!!", ]the girl's gonna get interested. Ahh.. who am i kidding, it works sometimes with these girls. My generation sucks.

Whatever la. No pictures because it sucked tits but whatever, at least my fav people was there.

I sense danger in Boat Quay tomorrow. Bwuahahahah.

I hope i feel better by then to witness his facial expression.