DumbDumbBells

I am at home on a Friday night, trying to stay awake when it is still damn early(11.03pm) and finish up my EFMA project so that tomorrow I can snuggle in without any worries.

So, wish me luck, aites?

Friday, June 29, 2007

Okay, the weight loss journal is up.
http://journeyofinchesbegone.blogspot.com/
It might be not updated so much now due to my busy schedule and projects.

I mean, like, I am still awake now to do my EFMA. Pathetic, I know.
Today I was so stressed up with tuition, school and what-nots that while rushing to tutor Safie at 6.30. I actually stopped for a breather under one random block and stringed my thoughts down on paper. I am actually trying to cut down or smoking, hell, maybe even quit. No none of the cancer shit but because it is really burning a hole in my wallet. Guess the government got their wish after all. My point? In all of the 20 minutes I pondered, I didn't light up! I felt so proud of myself. I know I am a far cry from quitting altogether but hey, baby steps, right?

He finally got back from outfield. My phone rang in the morning and instinctively I knew it was him eventhough he told me he would be back only in the afternoon. I rushed and was ecstatic to see 'Regan' blinking on my phone. I almost screamed. After a hot and heavy conversation that might have gotten a tad too heavy(sniggers), I dragged myself to school.

And there, right there in management class that I decided being clueless for this long is bad. I know what's happening but I don't find my knowledge matching to my expectations. And so, I have constructed a schedule from now till my final examination for all my module and making way for me to be me and teach comfortably.

Which leads me to my next topic. This girl in my class wrote this on her blog. Not word by word, of course but it goes something like this," Please dun push me to their kind of life, I am not like them!". She does not enjoy what we are doing so she goes to the beach ALONE so that 'the wind can swirl in her hair'. And the highlight of our chalet in her opinion? 'Jackpot in the arcade'. WTF?!?She barely spoke to any of us and then she bloody categorize us? THEIR life, MY life.

Look, I am not being mean. Oh, fuck it, yes I am. But I have a reason. You tell me, in poly, do you only flock with people that suits with your own lifestyle? No. You get people from different walks of life. And it is not 'pushing you to whose life'. Who the fuck asked you to live our lives? You really think we ALL have the same interests? Heck no. But we try. That is the difference! You dun even talk to us, no fucking wonder you hated the chalet. There was no need to drink and nobody objected to smoking in the chalet. You hate it so much? Go find an astronaut suit and a mask, complete with an oxygen tank. Oh, bring an arcade machine with you too.

Truth is, I don't even hate this girl. Studious, kinda soft spoken(I think). It's not against her, per se. It is against her narrow mindedness. I am not being a hypocrite when I talk to her nicely, I only talk about studies with her. And I dun mix my studies with my personal assumptions and judgements. So don't get it twisted, u dig? *snigger.

Really, cannot stand narrow-minded idiots. TRY! Try and blend, mix. You'll find yourself a happier person.

Whatever. Got to go. This air conditoning in my room's making the tip of my nose red and runny. (Funny how my nose detects hot and cold before anything other parts of my body, unless it's my... nvm).

Thursday, June 28, 2007

I am getting bored of blogging.

But what the hey.
What is up with the sweltering weather nowadays? It is already hard enough to lug my fat ass to wake up and leave with a piece of mind to school. After which, it is tough to walk from Yio Chu Kang to the school with the army of students walking together with him. And then, once I escape the air-conditioning, beads of sweat starts to form.

And today, after all that, today, the teacher decided to be an arse. She almost disqualified us from presenting because we were late but it was a mad rush and though it was not a good thing to be late during an ICA, there was no need to be harsh.

Me and Cliff, Joanne, Cj, Yan Zhen and Yun Qi headed out to an outside coffeeshop to rant and have lunch. I was so tired by that time due to my late night yesterday that the thought of tuition for both Safie and Erna was not helping. Was considering meeting the TOTS at Tampines but decided against it as that would extend my wait for my pay day. Balls.

And now I am at home, resting and getting lazy once again to go out to teach. But I guess, I can just shut up, pack up my bags, teach AND go to the gym. How bout that for motivation,huh?

SO let me finish this cigarette and leave. Oh, and I got an interesting post coming up for my classmates.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

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It has been three days he has not been able to contact me due to his outfield training.

It's killing me. I miss his touch, his kisses, his smile, his fucking irritating voice. Gawd, this is beyond hope and so not me. This is so not me. Goodness, I have never felt it like this before.
This yearning, this hope.

Please come back fast.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

With this heart, I long.

I feel something in my stomach. I don't know what but it feels like I can poop and puke at the same time. And yesterday(Monday), I was walking to school,happy because I was early, it being a new semester and a new week and all. And then it happened. I just cramped out, I was so sure it was menstrual cramp, I just stood there, not able to stand nor walk. After a painful ten minutes passed, I could finally walk. So I walked straight to the polyclinic and limped back home. After much recuperation, I decided I could get myself to go teach my two students in the afternoon.

And today, when I woke up, I felt it again. Though it was not another wave of pain, rather just minor aches, I contemplated on skipping school again. But I knew if this was to be a habit, it would be tough for me to break out of it and good ol' me went to school.

So, I was bombarded with projects and what-nots.

And lots of bitching in my class really helped. It takes the mind off things that I know would fill my mind if I had nothing to do or nothing to talk about. I went back home, though tired, finished the laundry, laid the dinner table, cleaned my room and now, I am going to finish up my project which needs to be handed up tomorrow.

I think I juggle being responsible for my own home, responsible for my own spending, juggling my school work, friends, boyfriend, family and myself well. And that takes a lot from me, sometimes, I wish for another life but I know that placed in a whole new situation, I would be a whole different person and I don't know if I would like that or not.

On another note, please do not categorize me. I am whatever I want to be. If I want to be this one day, I can be another person another day, so, I repeat, do not make the mistake of categorizing me. Really, unless you like being wrong.

So, let me go now. CIAO.

p.s: I started a journal on my weight loss plan. Or rather the journey of losing weight, which may/may not reach the destination. IF u want, tag me and I'll link u to that blog. Don't want, also can.

Friday, June 22, 2007

Bah, enough of multiply. I'll just post the pics here, ok?

CHALET WITH KICK-ASS PEOPLE. I LIKED IT A LOT!

Went a lil late because tuition ended late and I wanted some cash. Pay was not in yet. Was famished and all i ate was two hotdogs and then off to Zouk!

After finishing this damn ex jug of whisky coke, decided it was too pack and too chee-na for my liking. So we left to Velvet Dragon because we know we gonna get free drinks!

I LOVED IT!! The company was the best. =))

Yan Zhen looks damn horny for my assets. PERVERT!

Her name's also Zulaikha!

Not the girl behind me, the one i am hugging.

But looking at that girl makes me not wanna eat ever again.JK.

Told u. Yan Zhen's a pervert.

They were not really kissing laaa.

I like how I look here. Grins. (thick skinned, right? I know)

After like many many drink after, with our feet aching to the very core, we still wanted to dance so we walked to MOS but it was close so we sat there, thinking of where to go. We did not want to spend unnecessary money. So, we snapped away while deciding.

JOANNE! My partner in crime.

Erika and Yun Qi

We then decided to proceed back to the chalet. It took us hours to get the BBQ started and lots of help. Started at 5.30am and only got to eat at 9, ok!

*SLURPS

After which, Yun Qi and Joanne left while I decided that I was going to have a nap before leaving since not many people would be staying over the next night. Thank god, I didn't leave!!

It was so fun, everyone was dancing, drinking, talking, laughing. Loved it. Really, thanks Jerald for bringing ur marvellous speakers! Not much pics here, everyone was dancing!! LOL

Really, luckily I stayed. It was nice knowing all the different personalities in the class. Sometimes, I am determined not to like certain type of people but whenever I start talking to them, I decide that I was being TOO judgemental. SO I'd like to discard all my judgements and angst about people and just fucking live for goodness' sake.

Threading, thosai-s and Kboxing with the girls tomorrow. WOOTS!

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P.S: My brother's back from NS!! YAY!!!

P.P.S: Got my pay! Though little, it still rocks!

P.P.P.S: Regan's still in reservist and I cannot wait for him to book out tomorrow. We nearly lost what we had, my dear and I appreciate it that you did not let go. I love you too much and I long for your arms again. COME BACK LA, SOLDIER!

Sunday, June 17, 2007

I My god! This whole weekend was full of eating. Wait, I'll go through the details. I think this is going to be a long post but then again, after all that food intake, my eyes are shutting but I'll let my fingers dance and we'll see how far we go, ok?

OK.

First off, I wanna wish one of my very good friend from JC, the land of teletubby hills and rainbows, FIZ, A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I am so sorry it is belated but I told you! I am very bad with dates and number and names too, sometimes. Like, really, real bad. I can even forget my own birthdate, I tell you. For the past two years, if not for my god-mum, I would have missed my own birthday so, SORRY AGAIN!!

Thank god, I met up with her on Wednesday to catch the Rise Of The Silver Surfer. It was ok. I say this with the risk of having my nerdy boyfriend knocking me on the head but I am not really a Marvel fanatic. I mean, it is ok but not a fanatic, no. But it was good catching up with Fiz and Vila. Can u believe it? I forgot Vila's name! Oh boy, thank god she did not kill me.

Thursday was tuition and then off to meet Dell. We were so sure of ourselves, just talking and laughing away, took the bus to my parent's shop in Potong Pasir. Upon reaching Potong Pasir, I asked her,'Are u sure it's 851? I think it's 853,' to which she replied, 'Ya! I am confident it is 851.' What I meant was, ' Are u sure 851 goes there, i think we are supposed to take 853!'. She thought i was asking her, ' Are u sure we are in 851? I think we are in 853!'. Bleagh, miscommunication stopped us all the way to Tiong Bahru. Goodness, i think one day, Imma get my gal pals and take a bus and stop at any random place and just roam about. Singapore has a lot of nooks and crannies, I don't think we even need to take a holiday.

On Friday, after tuition, I went to my god mum's place to get some 'home-ish' feeling and just to drop by before my 3 cousins went off to KL.

My youngest one, I tell you, I LOVE THIS playground. I fell down playing the see-saw.

What a pig.

After which I hurried back to Woodlands to get me some lovin'. *winks. I missed him so much this week, it was good to get back into his arms. Watched Shrek3. It was fantabulous! I love the graphics, the storyline. Aside from the undeniably marvellous animations, i loved how they implemented the fairytales we all grew up learning and took off from there. I have always wondered, ' Where did the witch from Snow White go after she took off with Prince Charming?'. And i was in K2! Now I know. After which we went back home and slept straight away. Really, straight away! Was kinda irritated, you know but granted he has been working late hours a lot to clear all work before he goes off to reservist.

Saturday, I was rudely woken up by my excited boyfriend as he was gonna go buy a car. A Honda Jazz Sports Edition.

It's supposed to be in black.His mum went too.=) I like his mum. U would too.

We wanted to go to Paya Lebar to eat but ended up in Geylang. Malay's carrot cake sucks. I'd much rather eat Chinese food anytime. Met his friends, Vicky, Kelvin,etc and headed off to Secret Recipe to EAT AGAIN! Thank god, I was wearing baggy top, if not my stomach would lead the way instead of my boobs. We went to this groovy place to play pool at Labyrinth, it's so cool. I think the reason I love it so much is 'cause u can drink beer there. The badside? Cannot smoke. BLEAGH. Three hours later, STUFFED MY FACE AGAIN. Went home and slept. What pigs.

Sunday, I indulged myself in him as I woke up late and rolled in bed till it was time for his soccer. Last game of the season. After the game? Go drink and eat again. *pukes.

And today? He left for reservist and I miss him already. This is gonna be tough. Just came back from helping out at my mum's shop. Started at 4am. SO pardon me if the grammar, tenses and what nots are not up to standards. Tuition later for both my students then JB with Dell. And then me and Dell are gonna be on a movie marathon and when she leaves, I got to finish my Retail project.

CHALET WEDNESDAY!!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Please go under the Snapshots section. TOTS Sentosa 9june07.

All in all, it was really nice catching up.

Okay, look. We, the tots have been through shit and back together. Detention for wearing socks which are too short, skirts which are too tight(G-string alert!), dancing in the rain, ex-boyfriends, flings, family, dark times,fashion no-no(platforms and headband, anyone?), our first times, orgasms, you name it. We come from different walks of life, different background, different personalities. Which is why I will never be bored with them, because as we grow, we change and there are more new things we can talk about. But there are timings for each and every one of our serious talks and when we are not talking, we are laughing our heads off about jokes people would not understand. And there are certain traits in all of us that some would find disturbing and the thing about the tots is, we have no qualms in telling each other in their face that it's no good. And sometimes, it ends up in misunderstandings and fights(right, sha?).

And there are some situations where we have been through that we do not wish the other to go through because it is hard. The bond is sisterly yet we are friends. Which is why, right now when we all get busy, it gets harder to keep up and now when the efforts to meet up gets tougher, the change gets a bit drastic and we look at each other sometimes, and go, "Who is that girl now?". And more often than not, we dun like it. Personally, I dun wish for any of them to change. And right now, I am scared. Though I act indifferent, sometimes, too blunt, i love them. To pieces.

I feel like I don't know you anymore. You sound different. You act different but today, I see a glimpse of you again. I haven't seen you in a long time. And, I miss you. I do not want to spell your name because I wanna tell you this straight up and not from a blog. You sound sad and confused and I don't like that. Which is why, while some give up, I want to try because when I slipped up, you were there and now, though you haven't slipped up yet, I want to warn you. Because I know how it is. I know the glitz and the shit you have to go through where u are right now. And I want you to be safe. I nag because I care.

I just want to let you know that when your supposedly called friends leave you, we will be there. And we know you best, at least, we knew you best. i say, supposedly because I am cynical. Of people, of people saying they care but they don't. But that's just me. I know that all that I am worrying about might not even happen and for the first time, I wanna be wrong.

We love you, u should know that.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

This is so frustrating. Yesterday, I asked Fi to send me the pictures. It was like 219203kb or something. Bloody hell, so big!

So I just left the comp on and slept. It got cut off at 789kb. Fucking frustrating!

So, today was tuition again from 1-4.30 for both of my students after which I came home and helped my mum to transfer some cash to my sister. I have a feeling, Imma be a great mum seeing how well I handle kids. I am effing proud of myself.

And so today, I got two more student. The best thing is that he is my very own nephew and my nephew's friend and I am tutoring them both at the same time. Ka-ching! But I cannot afford to get any more students or else I cannot cope with my own modules. I don't understand how I can make myself busy even during the holidays. Maybe I am just not used to not doing anything and slacking, it makes me depressed.

I am so boring right now, I have been waiting for the holidays for so long. Nw that it's here, all I wanna do is slack and sleep. It's not wrong that I dun feel like clubbing, like boozing, like whatever la. I just dun feel like it at all. Maybe next week. This week is for me to spend with Regan before he goes to reservist.There goes another man in my life serving the government.Tsk.

Met up with him just now, I don't know why but I feel so weird with him. Happy weird, like it all settles it familiar territory. It sits really well, I like where we are.

Sorry for digressing but my mum bought 4 crates of Jia Jia Liang Tea and I think I like it. In fact, Imma get one now.

.....

yummy.

Anyway, I am blogging because I am PATIENTLY waiting for Heiqal to pass me the other set of Sentosa pic. We took a lot of pics la.

HEIqAL's CAM pics : 25095 kb.

BLARDIE KENTOT.

Monday, June 11, 2007

Sometimes, it's easy to get irritated with him.
Sometimes, I feel like hanging up when talking to him
But then again,
Sometimes, just seeing his face again makes me forget about why I was irritated in the first place.
I'll smile no matter how angry I am.
Seems like the heart have no desire to follow what the brain's telling it to do.
And when I hang up the phone, something seems to keep probing me to call him.
The thought of losing him makes me scared.
I have said this many times and the meaning stays the same.
I love you Regan.
Same as yesterday, today and it will remain the same tomorrow.

Mushy, I know but I type this so you won't say ewwww with that irritating face of yours.
But I don't know why, tonight, I cannot stop thinking about you.

I miss you.

Tuition in the afternoon.
Tampines later, god mum house, Dell, Bib and Sha.
My bunch of loud nephews,
A long journey home.

I am tired. Goodnight world.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

YAWNS

I spent the whole of today on the internet. Watching Friends and Sex & the City at Movie6.net and people getting manicures and perms on YouTube. Bloghopped and looked for awesome make-up brushes.

That's all. Thank god my mum asked me to eat or else I would have forgotten to eat altogether.

Felt like shit today about my weight and complexion so I started curling my hair and doing up my face and I feel better, thank you.

Wishlist: *Nivea Aqua Moisturizer
*Shiseido brushes
*Clinique mascara
*Bodyshop Blusher
*Mani&Pedi
*A perm
*Biore Makeup remover wipes
*Cream for dark circles

That's it.
Then I am happy. Note, I did not ask for clothes. That's a given, duh.

I am starting to sound like a shallow bitch whose biggest concern is about appearance but really, I have started to let myself go and that's not good. And with the exams over, I am sure I deserve to talk about my blemishes all I want.

COURTS with my project group tomorrow, so much for the holidays and pics from Sentosa coming up.

So stay tuned,k?
See ya.

Thursday, June 7, 2007

And so the brother leaves.

So today was a loooooooong day. Actually, I kind of feel that the day started yesterday night where me and my brother took advantage of the last night he stays home to play Winning Eleven till the wee hours.

That's him (botak!*muffles laugh) and me with eyeliner smudged because I have a bad habit of rubbing my eyes(Oops)

So as a result, we slept at 5am and woke up with a start because my mum wanted to act like an officer screaming at us to wake up at 7am.

So I left the house in a rush and hurriedly packed my school things as well. Met Dell at Pasir Ris Interchange and had McDonald's for breakfast. After which, Dell had to say goodbye to my brother because she had school.

And so, we got to see where the recruits are going to be staying in even before they got to see it for themselves. And i tell ya, the training is hard but the living condition is not as bad as I expected it to be.

(1) The bed in the room

(2),(3) &(4) - The Annex where the recruits and the commandos chill.

OK WHAAAAAT!

I was so tired after I came back home but I forced myself to go to school and I did! So proud of myself. Took 854 form Kaki Bukit to go to Yio Chu Kang and with Eagles playing in my Ipod and the air conditioning blowing gently at me, it made me forget about the INSANE HEAT outside and I fell into a deep slumber that hurt my neck. Anyway, I missed my stop and stopped at Yishun and took an MRT back to school. Willpower, ok!

Anyway, after that, I got home, studied for EFMA and finished my NE project. Escaped off to Regan's place and both of us went to sleep. Poor things, both of us are damn shagged after going through this whole week.

But it's overrrrrr.

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Brenda gave me these.

I don't know why I look so stressed and you see Joanne being auntie2.

I can hear her saying ," Ika Ika, you know hor..."

I don't know what Brenda was doing with her hair though.

We just have to take a pic and answer these questions:

1. How has my field visit enriched my understanding of being a Singaporean?

Answer: City Link makes me want to shop. We don't trust foreigners to take our pictures because they would run away and steal them away.

2. What have I learnt as a result from this field visit?

Answer: The sun is damn hot.

3. Comment on any key observations/highlights of your trip.

Answer: It was a complete waste of time.

I cannot sleep. I miss Regan but I have to spend some time with my brother before he leaves and then, I am all his!

Last day of torture: Friday: ICT presentation.

EFMA ICA1 written test.

I am starting to LURVE school and my class.

Monday, June 4, 2007

I tell you, there is a whole lot of things going through my head.I'm afraid my brain have gone into holiday mode and I have to be the one yanking it off that assumption because eventhough the presentations over. I have two more pending written tests this final week of school. One(Business Law) at 6pm today and the other(Essential Finance and Management Accounting) on Friday. Business Law is fun so I am not so worried about that. But EFMA!! I hate EFMA, though I know that if I were to know anything at all about shares, I am gonna invest smart and be damn rich in the future. Whatever la, Zulaikha

Besides that, I have a nagging feeling that the moisturizer I am using right now is crap. My skin feels dehydrated and my makeup dun last which means that my skin's lapping it up like nobody's business. I use Clean and Clear moisturizer and my conclusion is that it is made for thirteen year olds and not for a 19 year old (fine, 18++) who stays up late, smokes like a chimney and drinks like a ...ermm... barrel? U get the picture la. I guess I have to get used to this till I finally can get a good one which undoubtedly which cost a substantial amount of money. *whines. What to do?

As you can see, the posts are moving which means my workload have been getting lighter. I guess I can wave goodbye to getting my digicam because my hair's getting intolerable lately. And I am looking for a good perm. Suggestions, anyone?

I wanna get something like this.

Of course, it won't turn out so nice unless I maintain it but I want!

I hate rebonded hair and I refuse to believe that people with rebonded hair are doomed to rebond all their life! GOODBYE, REBONDED HAIR!

This post is very girly, I know but what to do?

I can't wait to hit gym again. I feel so sluggish all the time now. Like my brain knows that it has to study and keeps diverting its attention to other unimportant things like, Sentosa(this Sat!!), chalet (Costa Sands!!) and Clinic. You get my drift.

But! A huge but! I am going to start working out before all this. Which means that I start Thursday.

Okay, Imma start studying now. Peace out.

p.s: Someone's eating Calbee's Hot and Spicy and the smell's getting to me. So much for working out. I....must....resist....

I know the new skin is nothing fantabulous but I think I like it simple till I change my mind and create a new one. And yes, I am still going to add more things in it. But I wanted to wrap it up and publish a freaking post and then I want to study for my Business Law ICA1.

After school today, I rushed over to Cash Convertor to sell my Cerutti pen. It didn't really get the amount I wanted but then again, I did get enough to buy myself a new contact lens after throwing away my newly bought ones because I slept over at Regan's and forgot to bring its case. Yeah, I am that broke.

After which, I made my way to give tuition @ Woodlands. I think it went well. Right after that, the agency called me to tutor another student living one street away from me.

Goodbye, being broke.

I wanted to say a lot of things just now but now, I am tired and I need to study so enjoy these overdue pics.

Had nothing to do while I took a cab because I got lost on my way to tuition so vanity got the better of me. Sorry.

This was taken ages ago @ the Pump Room

Since I am forever in school.

K bubbye